Today I have spent 80% of the day in bed. This is unheard of for me; even when I had newborn babies, I was up and about. I don’t like feeling “unproductive” and my brain is always buzzing with things I could do to fill my time.

Yesterday I had surgery, hence the bed rest. As much as I would love to cross something, anything off my to-do list, it is very obvious that my body just can’t handle it.

Although I’ve taken a step back from full-time management of Brynn Burke Photography, recently, I have had the itch to blog- but not as a business owner, just as me. My photography business will never look like it once did. My kids need routine and predictability that I couldn’t give them when my schedule was always changing. However, while my business may not be the full force of a studio it once was, I hope I can transform it into something that fuels my creativity. Being fully responsible for the total success or failure of an enterprise was hard to separate from personal success or failure- and that for sure drains your creativity.

I have spent YEARS learning the ins and outs of my camera, Lightroom, Photoshop, off-camera flash, and I feel like there’s so much more to share. My personal work has stretched me, and now I find myself dabbling in more conceptual photography portraits and digital painting. I am really proud of all that I have learned and all I am capable of with in the camera. That feeling is so powerful. There were many days a few years ago when I felt like the biggest artistic imposter and I was terrified of not meeting my own expectations. I feel I have really mastered the “beautiful portrait” and have begun moving more towards creating an image that tells a story or attempts to convey a feeling.

I know I want to share what I create, whether that is something for myself or something for a client. I would love to share the knowledge I have gained and educate others. I want to share more of me, more of life. When I was building my business into this brand, I felt like I had made a cage for myself. I felt like I had to embody my brand. I agonized about the tone and messaging of every little thing I shared, and there was no place to explore or make mistakes.

This new mentality- I hope- will allow me more freedom. I’ve been thinking of this change for about two years and just keep putting it off because I felt like I couldn’t define what I wanted this space to be. But, with bedrest, I am bored and I really have no excuse to put it off any longer. What’s competing with my time? The Great British Bakeoff?

Whether you’re a client of mine, a fellow Columbus Ohio artist, or even another creative soul across the world, welcome to this new iteration of this space.